Vent Session

Alright, all my blog friends. This is gonna come straight from the heart and it might pour out a little weird, but here it goes: 


You know when you trip and you're sort of falling forward trying to get your feet back underneath you and you're hoping and wishing that you don't fall flat on your face? Well, that is me the last 2 or 3 weeks. And when that feeling starts to take over my life, I set aside fewer and fewer hours for myself and get in a little bit of a depressed rut. 


I don't know if I've ever mentioned this before, but my DH works about 70 hours a week and we don't get too much time with him. He works at a little known package delivery place called UPS part time and he also has a full time job as a carpenter. He has every weekend off, but during the week, it's a quick hello and goodbye in between jobs and then we're all asleep by the time he gets home at night. Well, as you can imagine, they are SUPER busy during this time of year, so we're all exhausted every day and on the weekends, we sometimes feel like having lazy days around the house. At UPS, you have to start working as a part time employee and then they promote within for their full time positions. So, D wants to eventually be a driver with his own route and when he started working there they told him that the wait to get this position would be about 3-5 years. Well, then our economy tanked and less and less people were retiring and so now that original 3-5 years has turned in to 6-8 years. It's now been a little over 3 years and we have both gotten adjusted to not seeing each other very much and the kids have never known any different, so it's not TOO bad anymore, but every now and then I get a little sad. Sad for us, sad for our kids, sad for our families that have been so understanding of the the fact that when we do get a a spare moment on the weekends to be together as a family we sometimes turn down offers to go do things with them. 


Now, I know it could be 10 times worse. He could be in the military and be half way around the world fighting for our country, or have a schedule that doesn't permit him to even be with us on the weekends, or so many other things. But still, when I'm putting the kids to bed every night by myself and sitting alone every night by myself watching TV or reading a book or on the computer and going to bed every night by myself, it makes me sad. 


My husband is such a trooper, though. He never complains, never says he's tired, never grumbles when he has to wake up at 5:30 in the morning to go to work and doesn't get home until midnight. He is definitely the strongest man I know and I truly could not have picked a better person to spend the rest of my life with. 


All this has led up to, why I haven't been around for the past couple weeks. I, literally, run this house all by myself sometimes and chaos has taken over, FOR SURE! One of my favorite websites is FlyLady and her definition of CHAOS is perfect: Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome. Oh boy, that is us right now. We are full swing in to the holiday season and Doug is leaving earlier for UPS and coming home later. And when he (understandably) doesn't help out around the house as much, I am exhausted with all there is to do. We made the decision to get down the Christmas decorations this past holiday weekend and now we are up to our ears in Christmas stuff, too. None of it is actually put where it belongs, yet. It's all just crowding my kitchen counter, dining table, and hallways waiting to be put somewhere.


Okay, so enough of the whining and complaining. I have made the decision to snap out of this funk and get my butt in gear for the coming holiday! Crazy Cute Link Party will start again next week, and I also have some super cute Holiday projects coming and I'm super excited to share them all with you! I've got a couple cute holiday teacher gifts, and an awesome Christmas decor tutorial, and way more! So, stay tuned and get your glue guns ready for what I've got in store for you! :D